used to wanna cop a dreamcast off eBay back when my biggest check was a newegg rebate never is a clean slate, watch the past mutate dark web shipments, boxes with the weed stink the new gunshot is a keyboard clack ppl check u but they can't check facts message board heritage, lost a couple packets tho bumpin out the sp, old links and 404s 56k modem raps, i need more than that burned a lotta bridges in the past, I can't take it back i just wanna shuffle off this planet with my hope intact hoping i can hold to that, fuck all the awards and plaques i was 13 with a million accounts homeschooled queer kid tryna figure it out a lot of things clicked behind the keyboard and mouse IRL point of view, i had to get out the house!!! what am i to do when my friends leave me be-hind two years had to take a break like tea-time this some renaissance shit im too hard on myself i need to feel accomplished raised on it, online till i kick the bucket bedside epiphanies, deleted apps, fuckit life is a highway and i think i'm gettin carsick album of the year, mixed in a shitty apartment

u got me messed up (i just wanna) somehow crash right into ur house distance is killin me where u r i wanna b </3 heart gonna jump aint fair imma go broke just 2 breathe ur air! get my rackzzz up i could hold ur hand feelings got me like goddam i can’t do this on my own, no satellite singin soulful really tried to play it cool but i need u runnin! thru those! feelings! in my head, i don’t understand nothin goes as planned, i’m like damn singin! ya ya ya i don’t wanna b a fuckin millionaire i don’t wanna b this fuckin scared i just wanna be in love nobody in my hometown gets me ay i’m broke i was eatin off the dixie plates i got friends in a million different countries can’t rly feel it sometimes but i know they love me anxious in my b-body, heart shoddy lonely bitch probably! kinda haunts me : ( love with a satellite boy in my brain he control it like a parasite scared of flights but i got myself a passport on the plane i was praying for a fast forward holding him in my arms, all i asked for what a crash course livin for the back forth said fuck this shit imma move where u are 3 stacks on the miles man this shit is too hard wish i could pack up, move where u are 3k miles man this shit is too hard! omg dam ur so fuckin cool man <3333 us in bed layin think i’ll never stand again <3333 omg i got feelings in my heart n shit… make me feel soft as fuck… yea soft as fuck…

i get the bag in advance bouncing around i look dumb when i dance he feelin on me and i’m lovin his hands hands hands hands… they wanna see cartwheels and handstands roll outta bed & i get a check 2020 is big plans beardyboy eatin the internet, netnet i ate the internet then i got sick 22 but i feel like a kid this music shit, i’m glad i didn’t quit needed therapy or maybe some O_O all of my shooters are twinks! puppy nose i can smell what u think! on my own how much can i take? how can i flex negatives in the bank… i had to every hater’s IP cumslut rly need an IV i got a whip and i feel like IVY don’t touch me like poison IVY keep the homies safe get behind me met this bear told him get behind me i just robbed mcdonald’s because they’re out of ice cream i’m still from baltimore don’t u try me i get the bag in advance bouncing around i look dumb when i dance he feelin on me and i’m lovin his hands hands hands hands… they wanna see cartwheels and handstands roll outta bed & i get a check 2020 is big plans beardyboy eatin the internet, netnet all these thoughts i can’t maintain DDoSing my own brain information gone insane fuck a follow fuck the fame! i’m a faggot i’m absurd i’m a rapper i’m a nerd every bar every word hoping i can get a message heard hoping i can get this message sent… 4G lookin low i don’t do it for the clout! i do it for ur soul <3

soarin, i’m soarin soarin i’m burnin up… i’m just a spark in ur atmosphere down in my thoughts can’t find me here gimme ur love placate my fears why can’t u lift me up? i get too lost when i’m alone all of ur words they cut 2 bone stay up all night still on the phone and i’m soarin, and i’m burnin up i’m a bad son… with bad habits : ( still can’t get the blunt smell out my jacket still see a lotta talk and no action nowadays ppl say oh you’re rap-rapping! bad factions, backlash in shitty houses backpackin, freak fashion, no allowance bob kaufman, i should just shut up always sayin too much is why my heart’s caught up always doin too much, don’t wanna be a fuckup keep the headphones stapled on till the sun up he wanna get down all freaky, ay i don’t see why he do need me, ay hooked!!! and no one can free me i am no house you can’t lease me! i’m a joke i’m a freak i don’t rly understand what my boy sees in me i’m just a spark in ur atmosphere down in my thoughts can’t find me here gimme ur love placate my fears why can’t u lift me up? i get too lost when i’m alone all of ur words they cut 2 bone stay up all night still on the phone and i’m soarin, and i’m burnin up i already miss him v_V

i made out with this dude in the bathroom i feel ashamed but i feel attached too text messaged hearts when i’m in a bad mood that’s happy days i wish i could get back to but i got some things on the way now eatin i’m livin off paypal i got some weed on the way smoke on an eighth and i’m weighed down… i see my opps in the streets imma hit em! start my own brand now i’m paintin on denim! satellite told em raise ur antennas! tears on my shirt, they never washed out realizations i was only a sprout... realizations i was only a sprout! see the destination up in my route! :O we were out there in the cold nite… next 2 u boy <3 meltin in ur light dreamin about u inbound flight dreamin about u outbound flight… v_V

all my life i've been hurtin, questioning worth down! i feel misplaced open the curtains, troubling earth damn! left a bad taste i got some shit to prove to myself i shouldn't do it for nobody else but i ain't bulletproof, i got some wounds layin in bed but i feel overwhelmed dam. grew up all alone FUCK HOMESCHOOL all my friends were in my phone i felt miniscule shitty neighborhoods, and big dreams i was just a teen seeing life ain't what it seems how many dreams i have to sell yea, just to get by flimsy grades from last year lol i didn't even try i spent my whole ass life getting used to disguises gay as fuck from the womb but u know i confined it hate on myself, but i love on my boy and i'm here for the homies, can't stand being lonely came a long way! they used to call me fag for sitting with the crossed legs now im broke n broken bumping beats like all day and i try not to but rly care what yall say, yall say stress rules everything around me it all melts away with u all my dark thoughts watch em fade away look into my tired eyes when i do i see my home and broken battlecries i used 2 hate myself but u taught me otherwise i had them butterflies tears that u patted dry strategized around my fears since fuckin… birth so fuck what they say now, this is my time on earth used to be aaaddicted to stress find a different approach used to be addicted to you but now i love on my own.

i don’t need u to tell me what to do now to tell me what to do now i don’t need u… to tell me what to do now to tell me what to do !!! too many bad apples in the barrel yall soft-rot fruits couldn’t even walk upon this straight n narrow i tip-toe lines balancing depression and “too cool to hang with” yall leave me tired & confused makin me wish i was braindead i stay down from half of the weight of things i carry with me daily on my shoulder in a patchwork case a half-baked shell, a lie that i care if u think i’ll let u tell me what to do then beware i’m just that MFer with a case of being too cool to listen if ur tryin to control the wave then u best keep ur distance i only take advice from half the folks i say that i’m friends with i’ve been whippin in both lanes so see me swervin peep the message that i stay that kid! young n reckless with a temper queer and black i’ve been through it all i eat homophobes for breakfast keep it simple not political just stay up in your living room if i only rap about life without my living it’d be ending soon they gone pack ur bags! (move on out my way) they gone give u bad apples! (tell em i can’t wait) put it on my tab (fuck outta my face!) baaad apples - they gone pack ur bags! (move on out my way!!!) they gone give u bad apples! (tell em i can’t wait!!!) put it on my tab (fuck outta my face!!!!) wow wow wow wow wow… i don’t need u to tell me what to do now to tell me what to do now i don’t need u… to tell me what to do now to tell me what to do !!! strange, u say i changed remember when i came out gay? assumed a phase. so don’t look up my name plz! forget my face. i’m tryin to find my place… away from you. cut u off, puttin up a fight now u follow like a poltergeist bad apples on the way to get ya corny sharpie mark u out the picture toxic friendgroups perpetuating my depression 2016 out my teens learned my lesson now u watch me gleam and i feel like it’s a blessing the ol block button might just get u to accept it, ay i got some bigots in my family tree worms eat at ur leaves, fag a product of seed i’mma get this degree, make a couple classic albums then i’ll prolly say peace jealousy a disease i cut communications like that poor mars rover me and my homies about to take the world over! they gone pack ur bags! (move on out my way) they gone give u bad apples! (tell em i can’t wait) put it on my tab (fuck outta my face!) baaad apples - they gone pack ur bags! (move on out my way!!!) they gone give u bad apples! (tell em i can’t wait!!!) put it on my tab (fuck outta my face!!!!) wow wow wow wow wow… part 2 every day… it gets easier just to wake up… without u on my mind without u on my mind every day… it gets easier just to wake up… without u on my mind without u on my mind every day… i just bury u in different ways to kick u out my mind to kick u out my mind

ok! new glow when i step in new beat make ur head spin i was out but i'm back in yea, one thing u should know patches come and go old friends in my DMs tryna tell me how to be moments in the mirror man i swear it wasn't me everyone needs some understanding used 2 say it in my head now i say it with my chest they said keep this shit a hobby but i've been making some movements, kinda feel like iCarly that's cause i'm ten toes (lol dan schneider) lyrics in my memos pile up the demos bump em in ur zipcode old friends in my DMs tryna tell me how to be moments in the mirror where i swear i couldn't see couldn't see just how nice i am way i'm feelin lately tho, goddam!! >: ) used 2 say it in my head now i say it with my chest i hope you feel this!!! i hope u feel dis.