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56k modem raps
02:21
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used to wanna cop a dreamcast off eBay
back when my biggest check was a newegg rebate
never is a clean slate, watch the past mutate
dark web shipments, boxes with the weed stink
the new gunshot is a keyboard clack
ppl check u but they can't check facts
message board heritage, lost a couple packets tho
bumpin out the sp, old links and 404s
56k modem raps, i need more than that
burned a lotta bridges in the past, I can't take it back
i just wanna shuffle off this planet with my hope intact
hoping i can hold to that, fuck all the awards and plaques
i was 13 with a million accounts
homeschooled queer kid tryna figure it out
a lot of things clicked behind the keyboard and mouse
IRL point of view, i had to get out the house!!!
what am i to do when my friends leave me be-hind
two years had to take a break like tea-time
this some renaissance shit
im too hard on myself i need to feel accomplished
raised on it, online till i kick the bucket
bedside epiphanies, deleted apps, fuckit
life is a highway and i think i'm gettin carsick
album of the year, mixed in a shitty apartment
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2. |
in love
02:28
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u got me
messed up
(i just wanna) somehow
crash right
into ur house
distance
is killin me
where u r
i wanna b
</3 heart gonna jump aint fair
imma go broke just 2 breathe ur air!
get my rackzzz up i could hold ur hand
feelings got me like goddam
i can’t do this on my own, no
satellite singin soulful
really tried to play it cool but
i need u
runnin! thru those! feelings!
in my head, i don’t understand
nothin goes as planned, i’m like damn
singin! ya ya ya
i don’t wanna b a fuckin millionaire
i don’t wanna b this fuckin scared
i just wanna be in love
nobody in my hometown gets me ay
i’m broke i was eatin off the dixie plates
i got friends in a million different countries
can’t rly feel it sometimes but i know they love me
anxious in my b-body, heart shoddy
lonely bitch probably!
kinda haunts me : ( love with a satellite
boy in my brain he control it like a parasite
scared of flights but i got myself a passport
on the plane i was praying for a fast forward
holding him in my arms, all i asked for
what a crash course livin for the back forth
said fuck this shit imma move where u are
3 stacks on the miles man this shit is too hard
wish i could pack up, move where u are
3k miles man this shit is too hard!
omg dam ur so fuckin cool man <3333
us in bed layin think i’ll never stand again <3333
omg i got feelings in my heart n shit…
make me feel soft as fuck… yea soft as fuck…
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i get the bag in advance
bouncing around i look dumb when i dance
he feelin on me and i’m lovin his hands
hands hands hands…
they wanna see cartwheels and handstands
roll outta bed & i get a check
2020 is big plans
beardyboy eatin the internet, netnet
i ate the internet then i got sick
22 but i feel like a kid
this music shit, i’m glad i didn’t quit
needed therapy or maybe some O_O
all of my shooters are twinks!
puppy nose i can smell what u think!
on my own how much can i take?
how can i flex negatives in the bank…
i had to every hater’s IP
cumslut rly need an IV
i got a whip and i feel like IVY
don’t touch me like poison IVY
keep the homies safe get behind me
met this bear told him get behind me
i just robbed mcdonald’s because they’re out of ice cream
i’m still from baltimore don’t u try me
i get the bag in advance
bouncing around i look dumb when i dance
he feelin on me and i’m lovin his hands
hands hands hands…
they wanna see cartwheels and handstands
roll outta bed & i get a check
2020 is big plans
beardyboy eatin the internet, netnet
all these thoughts i can’t maintain
DDoSing my own brain
information gone insane
fuck a follow fuck the fame!
i’m a faggot i’m absurd
i’m a rapper i’m a nerd
every bar every word
hoping i can get a message heard
hoping i can get this message sent… 4G lookin low
i don’t do it for the clout!
i do it for ur soul <3
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etc interlude...
01:18
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ur atmosphere
03:12
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soarin, i’m soarin soarin
i’m burnin up…
i’m just a spark in ur atmosphere
down in my thoughts can’t find me here
gimme ur love placate my fears
why can’t u lift me up?
i get too lost when i’m alone
all of ur words they cut 2 bone
stay up all night still on the phone
and i’m soarin, and i’m burnin up
i’m a bad son… with bad habits : (
still can’t get the blunt smell out my jacket
still see a lotta talk and no action
nowadays ppl say oh you’re rap-rapping!
bad factions, backlash in shitty houses
backpackin, freak fashion, no allowance
bob kaufman, i should just shut up
always sayin too much is why my heart’s caught up
always doin too much, don’t wanna be a fuckup
keep the headphones stapled on till the sun up
he wanna get down all freaky, ay
i don’t see why he do need me, ay
hooked!!! and no one can free me
i am no house you can’t lease me!
i’m a joke i’m a freak
i don’t rly understand what my boy sees in me
i’m just a spark in ur atmosphere
down in my thoughts can’t find me here
gimme ur love placate my fears
why can’t u lift me up?
i get too lost when i’m alone
all of ur words they cut 2 bone
stay up all night still on the phone
and i’m soarin, and i’m burnin up
i already miss him v_V
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i made out with this dude in the bathroom
i feel ashamed but i feel attached too
text messaged hearts when i’m in a bad mood
that’s happy days i wish i could get back to
but i got some things on the way now
eatin i’m livin off paypal
i got some weed on the way
smoke on an eighth
and i’m weighed down…
i see my opps in the streets imma hit em!
start my own brand now i’m paintin on denim!
satellite told em raise ur antennas!
tears on my shirt, they never washed out
realizations i was only a sprout...
realizations i was only a sprout!
see the destination up in my route! :O
we were out there in the cold nite…
next 2 u boy <3 meltin in ur light
dreamin about u inbound flight
dreamin about u outbound flight… v_V
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stress rules everything
02:44
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all my life i've been hurtin, questioning worth
down! i feel misplaced
open the curtains, troubling earth
damn! left a bad taste
i got some shit to prove to myself
i shouldn't do it for nobody else
but i ain't bulletproof, i got some wounds
layin in bed but i feel overwhelmed
dam. grew up all alone
FUCK HOMESCHOOL
all my friends were in my phone i felt miniscule
shitty neighborhoods, and big dreams
i was just a teen seeing life ain't what it seems
how many dreams i have to sell
yea, just to get by
flimsy grades from last year
lol i didn't even try
i spent my whole ass life getting used to disguises
gay as fuck from the womb but u know i confined it
hate on myself, but i love on my boy
and i'm here for the homies, can't stand being lonely
came a long way!
they used to call me fag for sitting with the crossed legs
now im broke n broken bumping beats like all day
and i try not to but rly care what yall say, yall say
stress rules everything around me
it all melts away with u
all my dark thoughts watch em fade away
look into my tired eyes
when i do i see my home and broken battlecries
i used 2 hate myself but
u taught me otherwise
i had them butterflies
tears that u patted dry
strategized around my fears since fuckin… birth
so fuck what they say now, this is my time on earth
used to be aaaddicted to stress find a different approach
used to be addicted to you but now i love on my own.
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i don’t need u
to tell me what to do now
to tell me what to do now
i don’t need u…
to tell me what to do now
to tell me what to do !!!
too many bad apples in the barrel
yall soft-rot fruits couldn’t even walk upon this straight n narrow
i tip-toe lines balancing depression and “too cool to hang with”
yall leave me tired & confused makin me wish i was braindead
i stay down from half of the weight
of things i carry with me
daily on my shoulder in a patchwork case
a half-baked shell, a lie that i care
if u think i’ll let u tell me what to do then beware
i’m just that MFer with a case of being too cool to listen
if ur tryin to control the wave then u best keep ur distance
i only take advice from half the folks i say that i’m friends with
i’ve been whippin in both lanes so see me swervin peep the message
that i stay that kid!
young n reckless with a temper
queer and black i’ve been through it all
i eat homophobes for breakfast
keep it simple not political
just stay up in your living room
if i only rap about life without my living
it’d be ending soon
they gone pack ur bags!
(move on out my way)
they gone give u bad apples!
(tell em i can’t wait)
put it on my tab
(fuck outta my face!)
baaad apples -
they gone pack ur bags!
(move on out my way!!!)
they gone give u bad apples!
(tell em i can’t wait!!!)
put it on my tab
(fuck outta my face!!!!)
wow wow wow wow wow…
i don’t need u
to tell me what to do now
to tell me what to do now
i don’t need u…
to tell me what to do now
to tell me what to do !!!
strange, u say i changed
remember when i came out gay?
assumed a phase. so don’t look up my name
plz! forget my face. i’m tryin to find my place…
away from you.
cut u off, puttin up a fight
now u follow like a poltergeist
bad apples on the way to get ya
corny sharpie mark u out the picture
toxic friendgroups perpetuating my depression
2016 out my teens learned my lesson
now u watch me gleam and i feel like it’s a blessing
the ol block button might just get u to accept it, ay
i got some bigots in my family tree
worms eat at ur leaves, fag a product of seed
i’mma get this degree, make a couple classic albums
then i’ll prolly say peace
jealousy a disease
i cut communications like that poor mars rover
me and my homies about to take the world over!
they gone pack ur bags!
(move on out my way)
they gone give u bad apples!
(tell em i can’t wait)
put it on my tab
(fuck outta my face!)
baaad apples -
they gone pack ur bags!
(move on out my way!!!)
they gone give u bad apples!
(tell em i can’t wait!!!)
put it on my tab
(fuck outta my face!!!!)
wow wow wow wow wow…
part 2
every day…
it gets easier just to wake up…
without u on my mind
without u on my mind
every day…
it gets easier just to wake up…
without u on my mind
without u on my mind
every day…
i just bury u in different ways
to kick u out my mind
to kick u out my mind
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9. |
energy (felt)
02:18
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ok!
new glow when i step in
new beat make ur head spin
i was out but i'm back in
yea, one thing u should know
patches come and go
old friends in my DMs tryna tell me how to be
moments in the mirror man i swear it wasn't me
everyone needs some understanding
used 2 say it in my head
now i say it with my chest
they said keep this shit a hobby
but i've been making some movements, kinda feel like iCarly
that's cause i'm ten toes (lol dan schneider)
lyrics in my memos
pile up the demos
bump em in ur zipcode
old friends in my DMs tryna tell me how to be
moments in the mirror where i swear i couldn't see
couldn't see just how nice i am
way i'm feelin lately tho, goddam!! >: )
used 2 say it in my head
now i say it with my chest
i hope you feel this!!!
i hope u feel dis.
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